Been a long time

So I have been away for quite a long, I don't know but I believe blogging my outfits aren't the best at this time of my life. I struggle a lot, more than you can imagine with my self consciousness. I've been like this for as long as I can remember. This is a lifestyle i am living, and I don't know how life is without this weight on my shoulders. I feel like I am trapped in myself. My head hurts all the time and all I see is blackness. Everything that surround me is pure blackness. I'm dizzy and I feel nauseous. I want to throw up the food i've been eating today, but I've been told strictly not to and to try as much as I can to eat more. I feel fat, when I look in the mirror all i see is one ugly, fat and disgusting 17 year old girl with ugly blonde hair and weird eyes. I try hard everyday to keep a smile on my face, so that people will believe me when i say "I'm fine". But am I? It's a struggle to get up in the mornings, I don't recognize myself. I was happy before, wasn't i? No. I've never ever felt happiness. I've been trapped inside this monster ever since my mom gave birth to me in 1996. I cry, but no tears come out. I scream, but no sound come out from my mouth. What is wrong with me? My depression is keeping me from living a normal life. It makes me do thing's that I shouldn't be doing. A seventeen year old girl shouldn't be cutting her arms two times a day, or throw up the food she just ate. She should life her life and be happy.

Two weeks before my christmas i attempted suicide. I was tired, I didn't have any emotion left in me. I didn't thought about it, I just attempted it. I failed, as i've done the 22 other times. I'm 17, I shouldn't be thinking about suicide all day or ways to kill myself at night. I am lost and I have no idea what to do anymore.

My friends found out about this and they contacted the school. I've been sent to the norwegian psychiatry for teens for treatment. i don't know if I am going 100% into rehab or not, but what I do know is that I am going to be better. I'm going to smile. I will live my dreams and I will be a successful fashion journalist in London. I will be confident about myself and I will smile.

October

whaat? It's october, which usually is a really cold month here in Norway, but today it was so hot! I kinda don't like it though, I want to wear my new autumn clothes! Even this outfit was hot to wear! Found the ugliest place to take outfit photos today, but i really couldn't take it anywhere else. I had so short time today!

MW

Hii! Sorry for zero update, but I've been busy with school, friends and shopping (surprise), every day this fall break. I've been feeling rather bad lately as well, but from now on, I will try to post as often as I can. Hopefully everyday! Now over to some happy news! Me and my mom have planned a London trip in march, and I literally can't wait. I'm so in love with everything in that city, every building, the people, the food, the shops, everything! Just thinking about that I'm gonna be living in London in less than two year from now makes my heart goes quick. Can't wait! As I told you earlier this week Matthew Williamson had a collection for Lindex, if you remember? Well, happy news! I got the dress AND the clutch, and of course I wasn't strong enough to just buy two things. I also bought a pair of pants from the collection! I'm in heaven! My camera battery was dead today, so I will try to post a outfit post tomorrow, if my lazy ass actually will dress nice.

The 50's

Hi guys! Sorry for a horrible update these past days. I was suppose to post this yesterday, but I had a friend over so I completely forgot!
This dress, I love it so much already. I bought this in Oslo on Saturday and it's one of my favourite buys. It's a wool mix so its absolutely perfect for fall and winter. It's from Zara, and it's so inspired by the 50's don't you think? I was very inspired by it when I got dressed for dinner yesterday. I love this outfit so much!

Shopping day

Heelloo guys! How are you? :)
Today I've been shopping in the Norwegian capitol, Oslo! I don't know why, but I just love that city. I went there with my mom so that we could have a mother&daughter day! We went there quite early so that we could stay there for the day. Have any of you heard of Joe&The Juice? I love it! I bought this amazing chicken and avocado sandwich with whole grain toasted bread and it was so delicious! They also have the best smoothies there, you should try it out. And finally I got to buy Acne Rue, my new love!

Pants/Gina Tricot- Sweater/Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen- Jacket/Only-Shoes/Bianco

English tea time

Good afternoon! Right now I am currently sitting in my bed with the slackest outfit ever and I'm ready to have a movie night since now I can actually say; It's fall break! Yey! But the sad thing is, that we have a lot of schoolwork to do during this short vacation, I don't think the teachers really understand what vacation stands for, but I'll live trough it! Today I started my day at the doctor, and I got some really bad news. It seems that the hospital in my area actually don't have time for me until July next year, and I've already waited since April! What is wrong with that hospital? So I'll probably go to a private hospital. Well, enough about that! I had some more design today so I had the opportunity to work with my T-shirt sketches! I went to my favourite cafe in Drammen where I drank some amazing English breakfast tea. I went straight to work after that, so I didn't have time to take outfit pictures today!

Help!

Happy wednesday! I forgot my camera at home again, so I can't post an outfit post today! I suck. I'm going to Oslo this Saturday so I am already planning on what I should buy! I need to have 1400 NOK for the Matthew Williamson collection though. I am currently looking at bags, I need to have a few months thinking about which of these I will buy since I am a student and I don't have the best economy. But I was wondering if any of you could tell me who you think I should buy?

3.1 Philip Lim mini satchel

Michael Kors

Louis Vuitton Neverfull

So the thing is I really want the one from 3.1 Philip Lim first, and the Louis Vuitton next year. I will probably buy it in April or something like that. What do you think?

Matthew Williamson for Lindex

Finally the collection I've been waiting for is coming in store! The Matthew Williamson collection will be out next friday in selected Lindex stores and I am so excited! Matthew is known for his very energetic pieces, with blue and pink as one of the most used colours. He is one of my favourite designers, because of his good use with colours and fabrics. He is also so good with shapes on the clothes. I wanted to share with you my favourite pieces that I NEED, I'm totally gonna buy them next week. As a student, I can't afford his most expensive dresses so now I need to buy some.

This clutch actually looks like it is from his original collections, and it will spice up any outfit.
(599 NOK, 63.13 GBP)

This dress is amazing! It is silk and I love it. (799 NOK, 84.2 GBP)

Slow day

Hi guys! Right now I'm well placed in my couch watching a Norwegian TV show called "71 grader nord", its like a reality show where norwegian people comped and walk around Norway. It's a fun show! Today I've baked low carb cinnamon rolls so I'm looking forward to have them as a evening snack today, yum. If you are interested I can share the recipe with you.

So today I've also had a photo shoot at school with one of my best friends who where an angel helping me with this school task. It's a promoting task where I'm gonna promote myself as an stylist and designer! I styled her up in my clothes and it was a lot of fun. At lunch today we went to the nearby shopping mall to eat, and lucky for me they had something without gluten and I was so happy! It tasted delicious! Unfortunately I didn't take any pictures of my good food, but it was bruschetta with chicken and mozzarella.

Sorry for this boring boring update, but I am so tired today. I will post something good tomorrow I promise! Have a great night!

22 september

Today has been such a good day. I woke up late, which was absolutely amazing since I have this stupid sleeping problem. I went to the gym and did a quick run. And you know what? I bought sushi today! It was the most delicious sushi I've ever tasted! It's a new sushi restaurant in Drammen, which has one of the best sushi chefs in Norway and it tasted so good! I ordered maki with salmon, pesto and scallions and scampi with avocado. It was delicious! I'll definitely be one of their best customer, haha.

How's your day been?

AW13

What do I wear today? That's a question a lot of girls all over the world asks themselves. It's autumn and It's colder and for me, that's good because I can add layer on layer to my outfits! I want to give you guys some tips and the essential clothing items you absolutely need this autumn.

Knitted sweaters

I love these at this time of the year, but for some girls It's quite easy to just pull on a sweater with some jeans, but there is actually quite easy to make your outfit more fashionable. 

Acne rue/ HERE

By Malene Birger/ HERE

Gina Tricot Maud/ HERE

Blazers

A lifesaver! It can make any boring outfit more classic and feminine. I need to buy some more of these. You can choose a classic colour like black, blue or grey, or you can choose something different like patterned, red or green. 

Zara blazer/ HERE 

Ganni/HERE

Zara/ HERE

Skirts

Oh, how I love skirts! You can where it all year around and at winter and autumn you can have a pantyhose or thights under. This fall there is a lot of leather skirts and I do recommend to get one because they are both warm and stylish! I already have to which I love already.

Zara Leather/ HERE

Zara/ HERE

HM/ HERE

Shoes

Ancle boots, knee boots or uggs? Some of us thinks It's hard to choose winter shoes, but I'll give you my best tips! This autumn we will se a lots of boots, tractor soles and leather. This are just some that I love.

Din Sko/ HERE

Bianco/ HERE

Kurt Geiger/ HERE

In love with the ones from Kurt Geiger, I love kurt! I think i need to order them asap. I have the other two.

Trousers
What kind of trousers do I want to wear? Typically most girls grab a pair of jeans, but you can find so many other types of trousers!

Zara/ HERE

Gina Tricot/ HERE

Zara/ HERE

Zara/ HERE

These are just some style/ item tips for this fall and winter!

Now I am off to a quick workout, then hopefully I will find someone that can join me to a Sushi restaurant later today. I need sushi! I have one week school left before fall break, yey! But this week will be so hard an tiring. Not looking forward to it, but as the nerd I am, it will be okay. 

Coldness

Today is an absolutely freezing day! It's so cold here in Norway even though there is sun and open sky. I woke up early today, which is pretty much like me so i wasn't surprised but now I am sitting in my living room almost dozing off. But I can't sleep though, because I am going to a part later today!

I've been shopping today, some new things that I will wear tonight! Later today I will make a post about the schools i've been looking at in the UK. I'm so excited!! A really short post today, and i'm sorry for that. I'm still new, still learning to write good, so I was thinking about writing some short facts about me.

• I was born 21st December 1996 in Drammen, Norway
• I'm a really healthy person and I always eat healthy, which sometimes sucks
• I go to Akademiet private school and I study media arts (Private school in Norway is public school in the UK)
• I want to be a fashion journalist
• I have a huge passion for fashion

Boring facts, but that's the basic ones I guess.

Shirt/Ganni- Trousers/Gina Tricot- Hat/Cubus- Shoes/Converse

I looked like a pig today, I didn't put much effort in this outfit so don't blame me!

Cravings

Happy weekend! Today has been a working day for me, I've been sketching some new things for my t-shirt collection! I'm going to oslo next Saturday again so I've been looking at things I need to buy for this fall. I am in absolutely love with the KENZO sweater, but that color is from fall 12, so I think i'll go for a dark red one if I find someone who have KENZO in Oslo! Tomorrow I think I will write a post that has facts about me if you guys would be interested in that. Hope you guys have an amazing weekend!

Bag/Michael Kors- Sweater/KENZO- Knitted/Acne- Dress/Ganni- Boots/Kurt Geiger- Rings/ Arts&Crafts

Oh dear autumn

Its colder, leaves on the ground and short daylight. People wear sweaters and jeans instead of shorts and t-shirts. I myself love autumn, and I love how it slowly gets colder and all these beautiful colours outside. Today has been a really good day. I didn't go to school today because I am working on my new T-shirt collection! I woke up quite early so that i could do a quick workout! Now I am sipping on my protein smoothie with coconut oil, hemp protein powder and rasberries. Yesterday was a really long day! I was done at school around 1 pm so I went straight to Oslo. I went there for this school meeting with schools from all over the world. I am really interested in Goldsmiths in London though, that's been my favourite for quite a long time but I also looked at some others options in the UK. I am now also interested in the University of South Wales and the University of Strathclyde. The first is in Cardiff and the second is in Glasgow! This was such an exciting day! I also went for a quick shopping :)

Skirt/ Zara- Sweater/ Gina Tricot- Bag/ Michael Kors- Boots/ Din Sko